There
has been a common theme in my blogs over the past month. This glum motif of
loss is hardly subtle. Even last week when I tried to be positive I just ended
up acknowledging everything that’s bringing me down. It may have been a healthy
blog, but this ongoing theme is getting old. I’m tired of writing all boohoo about my truck, which still may
or may not get fixed. And for our chickens, I found another one yesterday
morning almost dead. She took all day to die. These good layers have a short
lifespan. What’s going to happen will happen no matter how I feel about it.
So
while I won’t deny I’m still in a funk, I want to be done writing about it. I’m
really not that bad off. I have a great job that I love and it provides
everything I need. I don’t watch TV so I don’t look into an unrealistic world
that might make mine look inadequate.
I
used to be quite the TV watcher. Not as much now. I remember the late night
infomercials that would try to sell me things I never knew I needed. How can a
30-60 second film convince me that I need something I wasn’t aware of? Maybe
they paint a picture of a sad life where someone else needs something.
Now
is an image like that going to be depressing or amusing? I don’t see how
watching something like this could be depressing.
Maybe someone who is very
empathetic would feel sorry for these poor people.
I
thought that the goal of the advertisers here was to make someone look and
think that they needed a product. They would show an image that people might be
able to relate to.
And the viewer would feel compelled
to spend money so they would never have to experience that again.
But
what planet do these people live on?
I’m
not feeling sorry for these people. And wait a moment, I feel a little better
about myself looking at these. I begin to think that I’m a little more capable
of everyday tasks.
Maybe
when these clips of people failing at things are shown in context they make
more sense. After all, these are the “before” pictures.
The after pictures might show
cheerful and successful people with no troubles in their lives at all. Maybe
these ads are very effective. I suppose they have to be in order to be on TV.
Or maybe not. Maybe these are desperate attempts to communicate a message, but
there is no real point and no clear statement is made. It’s little more than an
anguished at pitiful attempt at something, searching, grappling, and ultimately
failing.
So what am I trying
to say? Just this, I’m tired of being gloomy and am making a desperate attempt to
lighten things up. When I looked at these gif files they made me want to laugh.
I didn’t laugh out loud. But I may have cracked a smile. I was just hoping to pass
on a little light-hearted message this time instead of the miserable dirges I’ve
been at lately.
In truth, I am working
a lot on the memoir I’ve mentioned in previous posts. Little else is going on that
I feel I can talk about. I wasn’t sure what to blog about and I’ve wanted to share
this for awhile and so I did. I look back at some of my blog posts and am proud
of them. Some I look back on and cringe. Some I even cringe as I hit PUBLISH.
This may be one. But
it’s done and out there. It is done and there is no undoing.